I wonder what life would have been like had I taken one of the other roads as a young man. I’ve had a life of excitement most people only dream about.
I’ve spent 18 months living in Germany during 1968-70, I visit India on a regular basis and somewhere in between have been back to Europe twice. In hindsight staying in Germany was an attractive option for me since I love that beautiful country and its people. What would have happened if I stayed there?
Being a cop, private investigator and investigative TV news producer has taken me to the most monumental criminal cases including the Oklahoma Bombing, The Montana UNBOMB case, The 9/11 attack on America. Death penalty cases and major felony matters along with the theater of the courtrooms have consumed a portion of my life.
From observing over 700 autopsies of murder victims to handling body recovery as a patrol officer at the crash of Flight 191 in 1979. I have always been where the action was.
I’ve also had heartbreak and trauma invade my life that I chose not to share.
Did I waste my life? Did I miss connecting with the right woman somehow? Did I waste some wonderful opportunities? Those questions cannot be answered. So far I must be happy with the life I made since it’s the only one I have.
In any event I won’t get a second chance to do it all again. That’s the hard part. I want to go back to my youth but I’m afraid that’s not possible.
What sustains me today, are the wonderful people I’ve met that I can call my friends. Loyal and wonderful people have filled my life.
Nobody can tell the story better than a man who left this earth way too early. Perhaps Harry Chapin knew his days were numbered when he sang about a lost love and a life he might have lived…